Paralysis
There haven’t been any posts here for over a month now. As usual, I would like to think it has something to do with my incredibly interesting work on other projects or fantastic social life, but neither could be further from the truth. That’s not to say that I haven’t done anything productive in the last month, but mostly it’s items like helping my wife paint our bedroom or sawing up an uprooted tree in our yard. Hardly Earth-shattering or month-long events that would prevent me from writing.
In the mean time, I got a new iPod Touch (which I should write about at some point), which got me listening and watching a few podcasts on my bus to/from work. The two podcasts are photography related. One is a video podcast with critiques of user-submitted photos to The Radiant Vista and the other an audio podcast from The Digital Photography Show. Both have piqued my interest in advancing my own photography (as have a trip to the Udvar-Hazy Air & Space museum and thoughts of possible gifts for my upcoming birthday).
All this has me thinking about why I haven’t been too good at keeping up with my photography in the past (and this blog, for that matter). I have good runs here and there, but there’s been an overall lack of commitment to producing final images. It really comes down to a character flaw of mine, which is a paralysis that comes from not wanting to make a mistake. I have failed to start editing photos before because I haven’t really figured out my preferred workflow for copying, archiving, editing, and finalizing images. Why start something when I might figure out later that I should have done it another way? I also have dozens of images that I started to edit, but have never been finished, largely because I don’t know what I plan to do with them. Should I size them for prints? If so, at what aspect ratio? What will I do with them after they are printed? Should I save them for the web? At what resolution? Too big and they useful for people to steal. Too small and what’s the point? Even worse, what if someone sees a flaw in my work?
This is all ridiculous. I know it; I just have a hard time getting past it. For each of my concerns, there is an easy answer. Resizing images is a quick process, someone stealing my images isn’t a real loss right now (they don’t provide any income to me), and my work certainly has room for improvement and always will. In fact, critiques are one of the best ways to improve…
My wife will probably laugh at me when she reads this, because she has to deal with my crazy all the time. Hopefully my mounting frustration with myself over inactivity in photography and blogging—my two big personal interests—will force me to reprioritize my free time. How much crappy TV do I really need to watch?




